June 2013
I really don’t know what to do…. like I love him. I know that and i know I;lll never find anyone else like him…. but I get so bored, so scared and so curious. He’s finally given me confiednce, and made me feel like Im not super ugly and that any guy would love to have me as their boyfriend. Yet Ive only had one boyfriend… something inside of me wants to explore and try out and live life a little more on the wild side- I jsut want to expiernce everything before I settle down for the rest of my life. But I know Ill lose him forever if that happeneds…. but just last night I had a dream about kisisng another guy and being all sexy and mysterious, I want that first kiss wonder, that “this is a new guy almost a stranger and he’s holding my hand” type of feeling. All we have now is the comfortable, we are totally okay with ourselves and our bodies we don’t need to hide anything or be exciting anymore feeling… idFk what to do…
